So, normally I try to keep my posts light hearted, but lately I have been very stressed out. Besides being an author, a mom and a wife, I also work from home full time. Yes folks, on top of the duties I have with my family, I also work form home a full 40 hours per week.
Now, lately this is getting to me. I'm not sure what my first clue was - the racing heart rate or the fact that I am too stressed to even think straight (though, judging by my butt, I still have the ability to eat just fine). I was trying to think of places where I could cut back and there really aren't any.
Then I got to thinking - why do I do this to myself? Why not just go back to teaching? It would be SO much easier. No more waking up early to work, working during naps, working every evening and every weekend. No more telling my husband that I can't sit with him because I have to work. When I taught, work was over at 3:15. After that, I was free. Now, I work in every waking second. With the way my kids have been acting lately, I've been asking myself "What's the point?"
Then I really started to think about what it would entail to go back to work. One, I would have to wear something besides t-shirts, sandals and shorts every day. Two, I would have to leave the house at the same time EVERY DAY. That always sucked. Three, I would have to find childcare for my daughter. I have been contemplating doing this anyway, just to get her to try and listen to someone other than me. But, it wouldn't have been all day, every day.
Then I started to think about some of the other things, like waking up with the kids every morning, taking my son to school every day and volunteering in his classroom. I wouldn't be able to do any of those things if I went back to teaching. Then I thought about running around in the house during the day with the kids. Even if I was chasing them to time out, that is still better than sitting in a room of hormonal, smelly teens, right?
So, I guess I need to get even better about my time management and maybe figure out a way for forgo some sleep. A bad day at home is still better than a good day at work, right?





